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Allah’s kindness is very near to us. He hears all and answers our supplications. It is we who are full of shortcomings, so we badly need to be persistent in our supplications. Boredom or hopelessness should never cause us to stop invoking Allah, nor should one of us say: I prayed yet I have not been answered. Instead, we should press our heads humbly on the ground of our room or masjid and beg for help from Allah. Until we are answered, we must be persistent in asking Him

“Invoke your Lord with humility and in secret.” (Al-A’raf: 55)

Yesterday I called Khalid in HKL, he said the doctor told him that he need to have another transplant…His first transplant was on 6/12/2004, 6days before he turned 17. It was a tough period for him…he was completely irradiated, blood cells was ZERO! he received my stem cells that was harvested in October that year. It was my first unforgettable experience…I never admitted to the hospital for any kind of reasons….But that time I had to stay for 5days, 3days for harvesting process and 2 days for stem cells apheresis. They injected me everyday with Neupogen, a growth factor that will stimulate my stem cells to produce more and more blood. By the 2^nd day my back and pelvic bones become painful due to busy working marrow to produce more blood cells….macam overtime work la…

The next day, they sent me to the Haematology clinic and attached me to the apheresis machine…They inserted a large bore needle…besar gile…to my right basilic vein…rasenye…alhamdulillah the nurses there were all experts…skali cocok je dah dapat…another needle was inserted on my left hand so that one will be output, my blood will be sucked into the machine that will recognize the stem cells and separated it into a pine and later the other blood cells will go into my body back through the needle at my left hand… It was really an exhausting 4 hours…but I’m really glad that these stem cells will help my brother to be healthy again…. One day collection is not enough, I’ve got to undergo the same procedure the next morning….

Khalid survived with my stem cells for nearly 2 years..but now my blood cannot help him anymore…it become malignant back…I always pray to Allah as long as I’m healthy he will be too… but maybe Allah wants us to pray harder… I’ve a complete trust in Allah…He hears all and will answer our supplications…There must be a hikmah atas apa yang berlaku..

This time the doctor wants to try Zubair’s or Omar’s blood pulak…The 3 of us have the same HLA with Khalid…Last time I was the one because Zubair have to sit for PMR that year and very thin too…I don’t think he have enough blood. Hopefully this time Khalid will be OK…by Allah’s will.

We are very lucky and Allah is very fair…there are 6 of us adik beradik and 3 of us have the same HLA. We should be very thankful to Him.There is a patient that needs to undergo transplant, he had 9 siblings but none of them are matched to his HLA.

“If you ask, then ask of Allah, and if you seek help, then seek it from Allah…”

Last Friday Khalid went to the HKL for inguinal lymph node biopsy and CT scan…the results didn’t come out yet…but from the blood that was taken that day…he had increase in total WBC…30, and very low platelet, only 26 (N:150-400) for those who did not know. This is a bad sign…we were very worried that the disease will come back again….we prayed so hard that it will not relapse after 2 years Khalid in remission…

The doctor let him went back home just for the weekend and gave him Prednisolone (steroid) to suppress the production of white blood cells… But on Monday, despite of the steroid his WBC still increasing…up to 50…

The doctor took the blood again and observed it under the microscope…and Khalid was confirmed to get the disease again, but now it manifest as a leaukimia…I’m very sad…kesian Khalid…Besarnya ujian Allah…lagi sebulan he’s going to take SPM that was delayed for 2years…he is going to be 19 this December and still haven’t finish school…Sepuluh Akhir Ramadhan we’ve got to use it sangat2…banyakkan doa…semoga Allah sembuhkan Khalid…and Sumayyah too…

Last Tuesday…he’d started the chemotherapy back…again…induction treatment for 1 month…Adriamycin and Vincristine….raya kat hospital lagi this year…

Untuk kawan2 semua…tolong doakan adik saya…Jazakallah khairan kathira….May Allah bless all of you….

Assalamualaikum….

Hmmm…I’m going back to Kuantan tomorrow…tidak!! taknak balik…Ada 2 things yang tak puas hati hari ni…one, tajuk akhbar metro today, 30 september 2006…"Siswi tahfiz ketagih seks"..Astaghfirullah…macam2.. memang tak patut siswi tahfiz itu..ape nak jadik budak2 zaman sekarang..siang bertudung labuh malam berpakaian seksi mencari mangsa untuk melepaskan nafsu…tapi saya rasa lagi tak patut paper tu tulis tajuk muka depan akhbar diorg macam tu…sebesar2 page…what’s the point? knape nak tulis macam tu? semua tu memburukkan lagi nama Islam…bukan kena sorok kalau bdak tahfiz ke, sekolah agama ke buat tak elok..tapi they are exaggerating…same gak dgn what happened to UIA student few months back..dahla exaggerate…tak betul lak tu…pantang bdak yg ada kaitan ngan agama wat salah diorg besar2kan camtu skali…lagi satu kat akhbar tu…orang lelaki berjubah putih cam ustaz mencuri ape tah…tak bace pon…teruk betul…

lagi satu tak puas hati ngan hijjaz…ala..kumpulan nasyid tu…dulu hijjaz ni one of my fav nasyid group gak…sbb dari kecik dgr munif mase nadamurni dulu…tadi kat tv zoom in bersama hijjaz…mule2 ok la..pastu berduet ngan Azharina..pastu amek Ina Naim..bekas tunang Mawi tu..jadi artis…Isman cakap.."Kami akan menjadikan Ina penyanyi popular tanah air"..

Hmmm…I don’t understand…haram kan perempuan menyanyi di khalayak? diorg tak belajar ke? taktau ke? musykil gak.. suara satu hal…bertabarruj satu lg…perempuan berhias..makeup kan main tebal…cukur bulu kening…Hijjaz tau ke tak? kena tanye diorg nih…

To Sibah..sorry la kite tak suka hijjaz dah…hehe..tapi kaset2 dalam kete awak kite bg pinjam je tau…

Assalamualaikum.. hi again

U knows BCG? BCG is a not-proven-to-be-effective vaccine..is that true? I doubt if anybody out there don’t know about it. Kawan2 medic kat UIA or mane2 U…hello! if u dunno….lagi2 bdak paeds hehe..yang lain pun mesti ingat punya…masa zaman kite kecik2 dulu..masa pakai tudung senget2 lagi…horror je bile dengar BCG….with all the rumours about it….we can imagined how the nurses burned the needles and then korek2 our flesh with it….me myself don no how is it feel because I never had one…in standard six…(I went to a private school and KKM didn’t came to our school for this vaccination programme…and we took granted for not go to the clinic by ourselves…haha)…I’m not so sure about my very first few days of life whether I had it or not.. My mother said that my immunization was complete but she didn’t remember whether in the UK they had this Bacillus Calmette-Guérin-vaccine or not. The problem is, I don’t have any BCG scar at my upper arm as the others. I don’t even mind about this before, but recently my brother that used to have non-Hodgkin lymphoma and received my stem cells last year…was warded again..he had chronic cough but not that worse…and lymphadenitis and the doctors suspect that he had TB….I really hope they are wrong. One more thing I’m going to attach to internal medicine posting next week…There must be tones of TB cases in the ward…so now I’m thinking whether I should take the vaccine or not…but nowadays the Ministry of Health had stopped the BCG vaccination for standard six right? They found out that it is not protective anymore…is it true? Anybody out there who knows about this thing…please tell me…I have to decide whether to take it or not…

From my readings in a few articles…

In gobroomecounty.com, they wrote that the proven effect of BCG is to prevent the worse forms of TB disease in children (22 years old is certainly not children anymore right?) but the ability to prevent TB Infection is uncertain and diminishes in time. Several studies have indicated that BCG does not prevent infection or subsequent development of Pulmonary TB in adolescents or adults

Dr Shelton DC said in TB Quotes: "The serum employed was that concocted by the notorious Calmette, of the B. C. G. vaccine that is said, though falsely, to prevent tuberculosis. This vaccine has left a trail of disaster behind it wherever it has been used. It does not and, of course, cannot protect from tuberculosis. The only prevention of tuberculosis is scrupulous hygiene. Given this and no one need fear the disease. Not even children of tubercular parents, though in constant association with them, will develop tuberculosis, if they are cared for hygienically.

But in the other hand, Dr.Greene in www.drgreene.com said that many excellent large studies have shown BCG to be extremely effective, others only moderately so, and two showed only minimal efficacy… In light of this, BCG is indicated for infants or adults who either live in area where infection rates of tuberculosis exceed 1% per year are at high risk for prolonged exposure to infected adults who are untreated or who are continuously exposed to adults with resistant TB

Hmmm..any opinions?

Okla..selamat menjalani ibadah puasa “Ku mengharapkan Ramadhan kali ini penuh makna…”

Borak2 dgn susi kat msgr tadi…cakap pasal Quran…risau al-Quran yang dah dihafaz…banyak dilupakan….nak menghafaz memang mudah..tapi untuk retain…kena istiqamah sentiasa dgn Al-Furqan…we have to struggle betul2 sentiasa bersama Quran….Moga Allah bantu…

abusyuaib: hmm, ust nazri penah ckp tau…..
abusyuaib: dia kata, kita kan sesibuk mana pun sure x tinggal solat kan…
abusyuaib: sbb apa, sbb kt rs solat tu wajib
abusyuaib: so, kt kena tanam dlm diri, rs wajib ngulang quran tu sebagaimana wajib solat…
abusyuaib: supaya sesibuk mana pun kt, kt still wat ms utk ngulang, sebagaimana kt wat ms utk solat
abusyuaib: seolah2 ngulang tu solat ke-6 lah slps solat fardhu yg 5
abusyuaib: so klw sehari x wat, rs berslhnye sama dgn rs bersalah tngglkan solat…

Sajak ni Ieda tulis kat bookmark yang dia bagi masa kat DQ dulu….terima kasih ieda….bile susah menghafaz..baca kata2 ni rasa bersemangat balik…

Alangkah besar nikmatNya anugerah Allah,

Memuliakan dirimu dengan kitabNya

Siang dan malam kau bermujahadah

bersusah payah menghafaznya,

Jangan lekas putus asa,

ia kan berbalas juga.

Kerana setiap yang susah ada hikmahnya,

Berusahalah, berdoalah dan bertawakkallah,

Bukan semua orang mendapat apa yang dicita,

Sedangkan Allah punya kuasa mengurniakannya,

Bersabarlah dalam bermujahadah,

Kerana sabar itu terlalu indah

Assalamualaikum…

1st time ni nak menulis dalam blog nih…sepatutnye bulan Ramadhan ni kena banyakkan ibadah..kurangkan buat benda lain..tapi kejap je la…sambil2 borak ngan jack n sumayyah kat messenger…

tengah sedih ni…dah lama tak balik umah…dekat 3 bulan…bile balik ummi lak takde..khalid masuk wad lagi…bulan2 puasa ni lagi la sedih…kena masak sendiri…nasibla omar,zubair n huzaifah hari ni buka pose makan bubur gandum yang nenek bg smalam je…alhamdulillah puding roti ada lagi…buat custard je tadi…

Dalam Al-Quran Allah dah sebut Dia akan uji manusia, hamba2Nya dgn pelbagai cara..ada yang diuji dgn kesusahan, sakit, kesenangan etc…Allah uji kite untuk tgk sejauh mana kita dpt sabar n sejauh it will make us nearer to Him…

Jumaat lepas we went to HKL for Khalid’s follow up…2bulan tak balik…he lose his weight more than 10kg…appetite pon macam tu jugak…dr chang ask whether he had any lumps…he said that he had this lump at his groin for ages but never mention it…die ingat takde ape sbb dah lama tp bile dah kurus the lump become more prominent. dr cakap tu nodes…so kena buat CT scan n biopsy…hopefully takde ape2….dahla nak spm dah…kena doa banyak2..rabbuna yashfi insyaAllah…semoga dgn berkatnya bulan Ramadhan ni Allah makbulkan doa hambaNya…tambah pulak sumayyah pon tak sihat…kesian plak dahla sorang2 kat new zealand….Berat sungguh ujian ni…kesian abah n ummi…semoga ujian ini membuatkan kami lebih mendekatkan diri padaNya…

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Bibirmu dah mengucap sabar
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