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Alhamdulillah, I just got opportunity to re-write and publish the continuation of Khalid’s journal last week…moga semua dapat manfaat dr kisah yg ingin Khalid kongsikan dgn org ramai. beliau bercita2 ingin menulis sebuah buku ttg perjalanan hidupnya ttp xberkesampaian..Ya Allah, sampaikanlah salam rindu kami ini kpdnya di sana.. (Sumayyah)

Continuation of CHAPTER 7: NHL- NON HODGKINS LYMPHOMA

…So, I was given the first dose of Daunoruvicin and Vincristine through slow bolus. I started on the ALL High Risk Protocol. This is a treatment for Acute Lymphocytic Leukaemia. When I started chemo, I didn’t feel anything. Maybe my body takes time to react to the drugs. I was told that the red drug (dauno) can cause cardiac toxicity, red urine, hair loss, nausea, vomiting and decrease blood counts. Vincristine could give me Peripheral Neuropathy that is numbness of my fingers and toes and constipation. However, I pray to God that I would sail through this treatment without much side effect.

That night, my Uncle Zul took care of me because my mother needed a rest and she went to my cousin’s house. It was difficult of her to stay in that ward because it was crowded and the patients were all male. The next day, I was lucky to get a bed in the SW21 that is a first class ward. I was put in a four bedded room and later to a single room. Next treatment was MTX (Methotrexate) which was given intrathecally (meaning that the drug was given through an injection in the spine (Lumbar Puncture)). I also had L-aspariginase but it was withheld after 2 days because my liver enzyme (ALT) went up to 226 (normal is <40) which means that my liver cannot tolerate to this drug. In addition, I was also given dexamethasone and prednisolone. I completed my 4 round of dauno and vincristine, blood and cryo transfusions and finally on 20th of January, I was discharged. During this time, I made a few friends in the ward, they are Nik and Abdul Rahman. Both of them are 16 years old and have ALL. We spent time watching TV, chit chat and playing games whenever we are bored.

CHAPTER 8: MY 2ND ROUND OF CHEMO

On the 4^th February 2004, I was readmitted for my second round of chemo. The regime this time is HyperCVAD-course A which is a combination of cyclophosphamide, vincristine, adriamycin, dexamethasone and IT ara-c and MTX. We departed from Malacca in the morning and headed straight to haemato clinic. The clinic was packed with patients waiting for their turn. As for me, thank God I was asked to go straight to the ward. I reached about the same time as Uncle Zainol from Miri. So, we end up sharing the same room. The next morning, I had a BMA (Bone Marrow Aspiration) done by Dr. Chua. I was relieved that he secceeded getting the bone marrow. Uncle Zainol was not as lucky as me because he had to go through three times of BMA. He seems to be in a lot of pain. The bone marrow result came the next day where it shows partial remission with BMI (Bone Marrow involvement) 8 to 10 %.

The following day, the nurses set a line and started chemo. I completed the cycle this time without any complication, alhamdulillah. But this time I lost more hair. After my blood count was normal, on the 19^th of February, I was discharged. Praise be to Allah I did not have any complication accept for the LP. Dr. Chua failed to do it twice and I had to repeat the procedure by Dr. Ong. I hope next time I won’t face this problem anymore. I went home to Malacca. I stayed at home for only 1 week and I had a fever which was caused by an infection. I was admitted to Malacca Hospital on the 26^th of February. I was given antibiotics which gave me a lot of pain during the infusion. After my fever subsided on the 1^st March, I was advised to have a chemo port inserted because the doctors had a difficult time to set lines because my nerves had collapse due to previous chemotherapy. It was painful for me because it was done only under LA (Local Anaesthesia). I was discharged as soon as my wound healed.

CHAPTER 9: MY 3^RD ROUND OF CHEMO

After 3 weeks, I went to HKL for the next round of chemo which is the HyperCVAD B, a combination of Ara-c, Methotrexate and lumbar puncture. This is a high dose drug compared to HyperCVAD A. My sister, Asma’ looked after me because my mother had flu and cough. This time, I had a mild infection. My mouth felt sore. The nurses gave me some mouth gargle. I shared the room with a nice middle-aged man who is a very pleasant person. His name is Pak Cik Wan Mohamad. He suffered from DVT that is “Deep Vein Thrombosis”. We talked about many things and shared our food. I stayed in the hospital for 23 days because my blood count took longer time to climb up to normal. When my blood count returned to normal, I was discharged but for only 1 week. I went back to my new home in Jasin, Malacca. We just moved to Jasin and the house was messy but my mother did not allow me to help with housework and unpacking out things because I must have enough rest and avoid dust for fear of infection. Thank God. I was well and at the end of the week, I was ready for the next chemo.

On the 5^th of April 2004, I was admitted for BMA and the next day the doctors started me with HyperCVAD A. this is the 2^nd time I’m going through this regime. I was well and there was no complication this time. I had a terrible time sharing the room with a patient who had lots of visitors and poor hygiene. But luckily I had some nice time with my friends Rahman and Nik. Rahman came from Penang to have his FLAG/IDA while awaiting for his transplant. He has no match among his siblings. So, he was hoping for an unrelated donor. Nik came in for his ‘B Block’ of the German Protocol. He had very serious mucositis at that time and he was confined to his room. Rahman and I visited him occasionally. We played games on his PS2 although he was on morphine drip. Both of them were high spirited and were very positive in their fight against the disease. The BMA result came after 3 days of chemo and it shows the presence of 8 to 10 percent blasts in my marrow. After this chemo, the doctors decided to change to MIDAC for the next chemo. This is another high dose drug regime which I have to go through.

I left the hospital on 21^st of April 2004. the day before my siblings all came to have their blood taken for HLA (human Leukocyte Antigen) typing. This is to find out who would be match my blood for transplant later. Before I left, Abdul rahman had fever and severe vomiting. My mother and I sympathized with him. He was so sick and would not eat but he still can talk and make a joke with me. His brother Hanif was there to take care of him. The others in the room were Pak Cik Zainol and Pak Cik MatNoor. I was given a TCA appointment for MIDAC.

CHAPTER 10: FROM ALLAH WE COME AND TO HIM WE SHALL RETURN

When I was home, my friend Nik sent sms to me. He wrote the sad news of Rahman’s demise. I was shocked and sad that he had passed away but from Allah we come and to HIM we shall return. He was bleeding in his stomach, had asthma and kidney failure because of the side effects of high dose chemo. I must keep my spirit up and hope Allah will cure me.

On the 10^th of May 2004, I was admitted in ward 21 to be given MIDAC regime consisting of Mitoxantrone, Ara-c and Dexamethosone. Before that, I was told by Dr, Jameela that this is a high dose and quite harsh compared to the regimes before this. I was told to drink a lot of water to avoid drug toxicity and kidney damage.

I started chemo on 12^th May 2004. this time I lost all my hair including my eyebrows. Once finish, I was given 3 days home leave which I spent in Putrajaya in my auntie’s home. I was well and I didn’t realize that I have contracted the herpis zoster virus because I was neutropenic. Before I left for the hospital with Mak Long, Nik sms me saying that he has high fever with low blood count and low blood pressure. The next day he was sent to the ICU because of septicaemia. That same afternoon, Thursday, 20^th of May 2004, Nik passed away. In 10 days, I have lost two of my good friends, this time I was quite ill because of the shingles. I was isolated because this disease is very contagious. After 2 weeks, I was discharged. The plan is after this I will have BMA and gallium scan and also ‘A’ block of the German Protocol.

I went home and spend my days indoors. I didn’t go out because my blood counts were low. A few of my friends came over to visit me and we palyed carom and RISK.

At the end of June, I was admitted for ‘A’ block. This regime is high dose protocol. Within 5 days, I was given a combination of 5 drugs that is MTX, Vincristine, Ifosfamide, Cytarabine and VP-16 plus intrarhecal (LP). The MTX caused me mucositis. Thank God it was not that bad and I could still swallow my food. On the following month, I did a gallium scan where the radiologist injected isotope into my vein 48 hours before the scan to check whether the disease has spread to othe parts of my body. Thank God the result was negative. Bone marrow were also normal and clear of blasts. So, the doctors planned to give me low dose of chemo while waiting for transplant scheduled on the 18^th of October 2004. I had my chemo port removed in Malacca Hospital on the 4^th of October. However transplant was postponed because of scabbies and infection at the chemo port site. I was worried because of the delay but this is a blessing in disguise because I was able to fast the whole of Ramadhan and only came for PBSCT 2 weeks after raya.

CHAPTER 11: Peripheral Blood Stem Cell Transplant (PBSCT)

After one month of resting at home I was due for my transplant. We traveled to KL on Sunday morning, 28^th of November 2004. I brought quite a lot of my things because this time I was told by the doctor that I would have to stay quite a long time in the ward. Before entering the transplant room, my bags were sterilized and I changed into a clean hospital clothes. I was given a briefing on personal hygiene and care of food during the transplant because extra care has to be taken during the transplant process.

Next morning, I was wheeled to the Angio department to have my triple lumen hickman catheter inserted. It was dine under local anaesthesia (LA) without any sedation. It was terrible experience. I had to bear so much pain as the doctor tunneled through my tissues to get the line in. they took longer time than usual.

Once that done, I was ready for the next treatment that is TBI (total body irradiation). This will take 3 days with 2 doses daily……………

(Khalid’s journal stops here. Khalid left us to meet Allah the Almighty on 15^th November 2006..allahummaghfirlahu warhamhu wa’afihi wa’fu’anhu) –missing him lots and lots.

“Sungguh, Kami telah menciptakan manusia dalam bentuk yang sebaik-baiknya” (At-tin: 4)

Hebat ciptaan Allah…dalam diri kita sahaja menunjukkan kehebatan Allah Maha Pencipta…who else can create perfect and very complex creations? Kadang2 manusia lupa dan berlagak dgn kecantikan luaran yang Allah kurniakan…

Ada yang salah gunakan nikmat kecantikan….kalau kita fikir dalam2…Allah yang ciptakan kita…Allah yang
bagi kita bergerak…Allah yang bagi segalanya…kita hanya hamba..sepatutnya
kita perlu berterima kasih sangat sangat pada Allah….how can we ever think
nak buka aurat…nak buat maksiat…Secantik mana pun seseorang….berusaha
macam mana pun nak make-up bagi nampak cantik…semua manusia sama…bila kita
buat Y incision, potong up to suprapubic area..buka..sama je semua
orang….semua ada lungs, heart, liver, stomach, kidneys..and intestine yang
panjang tuh….semua berbau… tak kira lelaki perempuan, miskin kaya, melayu,
cina or india

….

Masa forensic hari
tu baru la dapat appreciate the real human’s anatomy..selama ni belajar kat
cadaver yang berzaman…hancur tak rupa manusia… nak cadangkan masa pre-clinical
tak payah la belajar epidemiology, spss yang konfem takkan ingat masa masuk
public health posting…but more on anatomy….beli la cadaver baru..so that we
can bukak sendiri ….maybe we can learn more….dan lagi ingat kot..sampai
bila2..

Lesson number 1: Death: Hundred percent certainty

Tentang mati….wahai diri..ingatlah bahawa hidup ini sementara cuma, hidup ini hanya persinggahan buat kita hamba yang Maha Esa…Allah berfirman didalam surah Al-’Araaf 34: “Tiap2 umat mempunyai batas waktunya: maka apabila telah datang waktunya mereka tidak dapat mengundurkannya barang sesaat pun dan tidak dapat pula mempercepatkannya.”

Waktu kematian kita sudah ditetapkan… Death may catch up with us at any time. Who knows perhaps this is the moment…entah esok entah beberapa minit lepas saya keluar dari computer lab ni…kita tak tahu bila….there is no guarantee that we will still be alive in the next hour.

There are endless aims pertaining to life occupy our minds…nak habis sekolah, nak masuk U…graduate…have a respectable occupation…nak kahwin…nak besarkan anak2…to lead a peaceful life…macam2 lagi…BUT we have to remember…DEATH is one of the few things in life certain to occur. After years of hard work, a student succeeds in entering the university, yet dies on the way to class. Someone who has recently been hired for a job loses his life on his first morning commute to his work. A traffic accident ends the lives of a newly married couple on their wedding day etc etc

The exact date and time sudah tertulis kita tak mampu nak mengubahnya..Cuma kita diberi pilihan oleh Allah Yang Maha Adil sama ada kita nak pergi dalam keadaan yang baik atau sebaliknya….We do have choices…Allah kurniakan kita akal yang waras supaya dapat menangkis nafsu2 mazmumah yang pastinya dalam diri manusia biasa….

Sedih rasanya bila melihat saudara seislam kita meninggal dalam keadaan yang kurang baik…kita tak boleh judge seseorang..yang layak hanya Allah yang Maha Mengetahui…. baru2 ni semasa posting forensic…ada satu mayat…a young lady…younger than us dihantar untuk dibuat post-mortem selepas mati due to accident..saya tak sempat sama2 tgk the post-mortem sbb kena pegi Australian embassy utk buat visa….tapi from the others story..that girl involve in accident the night before (kami nampak ada accident masa balik from Aishah’s house back to makcik Ton’s in Andalas..same time, same place where the accident occured..tak sangka the next day kena buat post-mortem org yg involve accident tu….) yang sedihnya bila dgr keadaan adik tu yang berpakaian yang sangat tidak sesuai for a muslim…all of her friends tak injured and guess what? They run and left their friend dying alone…(menurut cerita polis)…kita doa2 byk2 Allah tak tarik nyawa kita masa iman kita menurun….Jangan kita sangka kita boleh enjoy sesuka hati kerana umur kita yang masih muda….sesiapa je boleh mati…tak kira umur, muda or tua…sihat or sakit…Moga Allah ampunkan dosa2 kita….Kadang2 orang yang diuji dgn kesakitan mengeluh…kenapa aku yang sakit? Kenapa tak org lain yang jahat tak kena? Why this..why that….tapi kita kena ingat…ada hikmahnya…ujian kesakitan itu antara cara untuk dosa2 kita dihapuskan….jika kita menerimanya dgn sabar dan menjadikan kita lebih dekat dgn Yang Maha Esa..At least kita dapat bersedia…Allah bagi masa untuk bertaubat….

Death will, most likely, come upon you at a time when, only a moment before, you never thought about dying…. (harun yahya)

Say: “Death, from which you are fleeing, will certainly catch up with you. Then you will be returned to the Knower of The Unseen and The Visible and He will inform you about what you did.” (Al-Jumu’ah:8)

20 years dulu…12/12/1987 Allah izinkan ummi selamat lahirkan khalid… a healthy 4.2 kg boy…
ummi kata itu yg paling sakit…ummi kata ummi ingat ummi dah meninggal…ummi nampak rama2 yg besar kat atas…Alhamdulillah Allah panjangkan umur dan selamat melahirkan….
Tapi Allah dah takdirkan Khalid hidup selama 19 tahun sahaja… He was born in the labour room, Hospital Kuala Lumpur December 1987and was passed away in SW26, Hospital Kuala Lumpur November 2006….Masih terasa bila lalu area HKL…bile naik monorail…i used to travel from kl central to chow kit station nearly every week (mase kat matriks dulu)..sebab khalid and ummi kat sana…
Ya Allah tempatkan dia bersama golongan yg Kau redhai… dan Kau akhiri kehidupan kami semua dgn pengakhiran yang baik…
Sumayyah nak balik next week…

15 November 2007, 11.20am genap setahun Khalid kembali
ke  sana…pejam
celik dah setahun…terasa baru semalam dia menghembus nafas yang terakhir…if
sorang2…tgk CD gamba n video Khalid yang Sumayyah buat..mesti
menangis…especially yg ada his pictures from he was initially diagnosed with
NHL…then gamba2 dia masa chemo, takde rambut, even eyebrows pun takde….that
time Khalid gemuk sbb steroid….a year after transplant start kurus….yang paling
sedih tak boleh tahan airmata….gambar yang busu zul amek after he was intubated…a
day before he passed away…

Yesterday morning I asked Dr.Firdaus, MO
anaes (currently I’m doing anaes posting) kenapa majority org yang kena
intubate airmata mengalir je….menangis ke? Just nak tanya…teringat Khalid
mengalir je airmata when he was unconscious…ummi sedih bile tengok…dulu ummi
tanya, is he in pain? Utk sedapkan hati I told her he’s not in pain as he’s on
analgesic n hypnotic…he can’t feel anything….

Dr.Firdaus kata airmata kuar sbb bile intubate, the
ETT or whatsoever will irritate our airway…dia kata cube try jolok2 kat tekak
kite…mesti airmata kita pun kuar…

I still remember masa Khalid tersedar sekejap ummi
suruh dia mengucap….die ikut n mulut dia bergerak sebut Allah…Allah….lama till
he was in deep sleep back…

Dah cukup menangis…dah pukul 3.40 am…esok pegi OT mata
bengkak lagi…moga Allah tempatkan Khalid dikalangan solihin…Allahumma akhhir
hayatana min dunya bi husnil khatimah….

Dekat dihatiku

Hatiku kembali tersentuh

Membisik untuk pulang ke sana

Di bayu pergunungan itu

Di laman kedamaian kita

Biarpun ku jauh disini

Namun tak pernah lupakanmu

Itulah sebagai tandanya

Didasar sanubari ini

Hanya kau yang amat ku sayang

Andai kau dengar lagu ini

Walau dimana dikau berada

Walau kau telah tiada

Mengertilah wahai adikku

Dikaulah yang amat kurindu

Yang kusayang buat selamanya

Tapi apalah daya diriku

Tak terucap lagi dibibir

Walau airmata mengalir

Ku tabahkan demi mereka

Kerna ku tahu ku kan pulang jua

Kita insyaAllah, akan kembali menghirup udara di bulan Ramadhan. Kita
insyaAllah akan merasakan kembali hari2 bahagia penuh penghambaan, kedekatan,
ketundukan, kekhusyu’an pada Allah yang Maha Rahman, yang Maha Rahim.

Setelah 11 bulan kita berpisah dengan Ramadhan setahun yang lalu, terlalu
banyak amal2 ibadah yang kita tinggalkan. Ramadhan lalu, khatam 30 juzu’ Quran
dalam masa 30 hari…berapa kali kita khatam selepas Ramadhan till now? Ramadhan
lalu hari2 bgn qiyam…berapa kali kita qiyam selepas Ramadhan? Ramadhan lalu
hari2 kita bangun awal n tak tidur lepas subuh…lepas Ramadhan berapa kali
kita bangun sebelum Subuh?….

Selama 11 bulan lamanya, kita telah mensia-siakan waktu. Banyak kebaikan
yang telah tersemai dalam Ramadhan setahun lalu, makin lama makin kering dan
kini nyaris mati. Kita tenggelam dalam arus kesibukan dan belenggu keinginan
yang tak akan pernah selesai dan tiada hujungnya….

Paling sedih sepanjang posting orthopaedic yang tinggal 3minggu lagi nak
habis….melalui posting ni dpt picture betapa sibuk nya kita bile dah jadi dr
nanti….banyak waktu habis di hospital…di OT…sampai 5, 6 pagi….sedihnya
rasa amalan berkurang…kurang masa untuk Quran….kurang masa untuk solat
sunat…..

Rasa bersyukur sangat dapat kembali bersama-sama memasuki Ramadhan, dapat
kembali merasakn kedamaian dan kesejukan hati di malam2 Ramadhan….Rindu
suasana makan sahur bersama, nikmatnya menahan lapar dan dahaga di siang hari,
berbuka bersama2….Rindu dekat Khalid….this is the first Ramadhan tanpa
Khalid….rasa macam baru je berbuka kat rumah…khalid ada makan sama2…bgn
sahur sama2….

Kuatkan tekad kita untuk menghapus, menebus dosa dalam bulan penuh barakah
ni…..Sama2 muhasabah segala dosa dan kesalahan kita selama ini…terlalu
banyak…Ya Allah ampunkan kami….

Marilah kita semua mengisi sisa waktu hidup di bulan suci dengan melakukan
amal2 soleh…sebanyak-banyaknya

Siapa tahu, kalau2 Ramadhan tahun ini merupakan Ramadhan terakhir
kita…..dan kita tak dapat lagi rasakan indahnya dan nikmatnya pahala Ramadhan
lagi?

8 days before Ramadhan…..sekejap je rasa…
Moga Ramadhan kali ini….lebih baik dari sebelumnya…InsyaAllah…

lagi 2 baby

yang dua ni girl…lagi 3 baby tak sempat amik gamba….dah tengok camane susah n sakit seorang ibu melahirkan anak…besar pengorbanan mereka…so kena sentiasa ingat jasa ibu…jangan sesekali kita sakiti hati mereka….Semoga Allah rahmati mereka…

Saja nak letak gamba babies yang sambut masa posting O&G…Ni  my anak sulung…boy….tembam tak? 4.2kg tu

Anak 2nd…boy jugak

My 3rd boy

4th…comel tak   

5th….namanya iskandar

Mesti dah besar2 dah skarang…semoga mereka menjadi insan yang soleh wa musleh…berbakti pada Islam….

Last week nenek sakit…fever for one week and on Friday (the day I came back to Kuantan after 5 days holiday to attend Safura n Nizam’s wedding) nenek pitam 2, 3 kali…masa kat umah nenek masa cuti dia ada complain palpitations…I thought it was just due to the fever….tak terfikir langsung acute coronary syndromes…bile nenek dah jadi teruk camtu baru terfikir ACS nye symptoms for elderly n diabetic patient lain sikit…selalunya takde chest pain….dah seminggu lebih nenek kat hospital…dah buat angioplasty n alhamdulillah sekarang better…tapi smalam masa nak balik…nenek menangis…pesan mintak doakan dia n belajar elok2…sedihnya….tak boleh tengok orang menangis….cepat rasa sebak….Semoga nenek sihat semula….

Tadi after solat jemaah with Aida n Timah kat musolla tengok2 buku2 kat situ…Terbaca buku Kisah-Kisah Pejuang, ditulis oleh Abdul Mun’im. Belek2 terbuka cerita tentang Urwah Ibn Zubair Al-Awwam, seorang insan yang khusyuk solatnya. Rasanya semua kenal dengan Urwah Ibn Zubair, salah seorang sahabat Rasulullah s.a.w yang dilahirkan dan dibesarkan dalam lingkungan keluarga muslim yang terhormat. Ayahnya Zubair Al-Awwam ialah salah seorang sahabat karib Rasulullah dan sepupu baginda. Ibunya Asma’ Abu Bakr As-Siddiq, saudara kandung Ummul Mukminin, Aisyah isteri Rasulullah. Urwah dan enam saudaranya tumbuh dan berkembang dengan diliputi oleh berkah serta kesucian. Kadang2 dia dan saudara2nya berada di rumah Saidina Abu Bakr, datuk mereka dan kadang2 di rumah Aisyah, ibu saudara mereka. Mereka mendengarkan dan menerima pengetahuan agama yang membuatkan hati mereka menjadi lapang dan jiwa mereka menjadi bersih.

Dalam kisah Urwah, sebagaimana biasanya, Allah menguji hambaNya dalam membezakan mana hambaNya yang sabar dan mana yang tidak sabar. Allah telah menguji Urwah dengan tertimpanya musibah pada diri dan anaknya. Riwayat menceritakan Urwah dan seorang anaknya pergi ke Damascus untuk berjumpa khalifah Walid Ibn Abdul Malik. Dalam perjalanan, beliau ditimpa penyakit di kakinya, dimana tiada ubat melainkan dipotong the affected kaki….Any differentials? Setibanya mereka di Damascus, Khalifah memanggil doktor dan mereka memutuskan untuk memotong kakinya dengan segera. Urwah tidak merasa gelisah atau sedih dan menghadapi cubaan itu dengan jiwa yang redha dan sabar. Doktor offer ubat bius tapi Urwah refused….Urwah berkata pada doktor:

”Jangan, aku yakin tiada seorang yang beriman kepada Allah mahu meminum sesuatu yang dapat menghilangkan akalnya, kerana jika hilang akal, ia akan lupa kepada Allah. Jika kamu harus memotong kakiku, maka laksanakanlah tugas itu di saat aku sedang solat supaya aku tidak merasa sakit”

Subhanallah…hebatnya sahabat….kalau kita sekarang ni…if possible everything nak bius, taknak sakit….teringat Khalid dulu selalu refused analgesic…dia lagi prefer rasa sakit sikit dari kena infuse Morphine or apa2 drugs…if tak tahan sangat baru dia bagi dr prescribe….

Setelah beliau berdiri solat dan fikirannya hanya terpusat pada Allah sebagaimana biasanya, doktor segera memotong kakinya, sedangkan ia tidak merasa kesakitan, bahkan badannya tidak bergerak sedikit pun. Pada malam itu juga anaknya meninggal kerana disepak kuda. Urwah berkata:

” Ya Allah, segala puji bagiMu, aku mempunyai empat kaki dan tangan, kemudian Engkau ambil satu. Kini hanya tinggal tiga. Dan aku mempunyai tujuh anak, kemudian Engkau ambil satu, kini mereka tinggal enam orang. Jika Engkau tiba-tiba memberi penyakit setelah memberi kesihatan, dan jika Engkau mengambil apa yang telah Engkau berikan, maka segala puji hanya bagiMu, Ya Allah”

Hmm..kagum terhadap Urwah yang tenang, sabar dan sangat bersyukur dan hanyut dalam mahabbah kepada Allah sehingga bila ia solat, maka hati dan fikirannya hanya terpusat kepada Allah semata dan melupakan semua yang ada di sekitarnya. Bila kita fikir-fikir, bila Allah uji kita dengan mengambil sesuatu dari kita, kita kena sabar, terima dengan redha, syukur Allah dah pinjamkan nikmat tu untuk kita walaupun seketika…..